Mountains Moved

I’ll never forget the sound of that clock ticking in my hospital room or the number above that ER bed. It was the longest 36 hours of waiting at the beginning of week 6 of my pregnancy. I went in for fluids and meds due to HG and wound up with a scare of an…

Infertility Is…

Infertility. It’s grief. Grief over the life we pictured for ourselves. Grief with every failed month. It’s pure, unadulterated frustration. Frustration that after 2.5 years of struggling for our sweet Bradley, we’re having to fight again and have been for over 2 years now—as if one struggle with infertility wasn’t hard enough. Frustration that we…

Taking Chances

After some appointments and phone calls, my clinic agreed to try at least one IUI before we start IVF. We were so excited for a chance at something less invasive and less intense. We walked down the hallway to my clinic the day of the procedure and tapped our coffees together and said "Let's go…

“I’m okay.”

IVF with ICSI. Our only medical option. It seems so finite. We've known for a while this may very well come to pass, but it wasn't entirely confirmed until after a second opinion was given, an optimistic outlook was left with us as my husband was wheeled back into the OR, and then that very…

A Letter To My Son

Bradley, As I put the final touches on your nursery, I can't help but think of the days when I daydreamed of what life might be like with you in it. I can't help but reminisce about the room that was always meant to be yours. When we first moved into this house, I instantly…

Even Miracles Take a Little Time

The story behind our little sprout will, without a doubt, bring tears to my eyes for the rest of my life. I share this story with a humble heart, knowing that there are so many women out there still waiting, still hurting, still wishing. I will never forget that side of the fence, nor the…

Gospel of John

I've embarked on my mission to read the Bible in it's entirety. I started this 3 days ago, and I do not regret a single second I've spent immersed in my Bible, journaling, and praying. It's amazing how we can read verses in the Bible during one season of our life and yet again during…

Awareness Month

As we hit mid-week in the first week of March, I wanted to share some myths and some facts about Endometriosis in light of this being the month of awareness for this chronic disease. The purpose of this is to further educate those I know about Endometriosis so that one day there may be a cure,…

Three Week Update

Rota has been so welcoming for us. We absolutely adore this small beach town that we are blessed to call "home" for the next three years. The past three weeks have been full of exploring, finding our house, getting acclimated to the local culture and daily life, and just enjoying being "together" full-time (in a physical…

Confirmation In A Bookstore

As my husband stood in line to get an Iced Vanilla Latte, I roamed around the bookstore inside of the NEX. I love browsing through the rows of books and flipping through different ones. I've already done this at least 5 times since we arrived in Rota, and the book section isn't very large. However,…